Moments & Memories

I know i shouldnt be telling this to random strangers but i just couldnt help it I.. hate my own family. No kau tak faham tau. Yes i have a great parent and whatsoever, tapi aku tak pernah rasa disayangi regardless of how many times my parents tell me that they 'love' me. Weh takde orang sayang aku ke do. There is no freaking person in this world yg actually hargai my existence. I banyak kali fikir nak lari rumah tbh, but ofc money problem whatsoever. I dont want much, i just want a happy family. I just want parents that could love me without needed to compare me with anyont else. Please la aku hidup bukan untuk puaskan hati orang je. I mean weh i achieved those pointer above 3.5 to make you guys feel proud but still korang asyik cari kesalahan aku. Tak pernah nak MENHARGAI EVERYTHING YANG I DID FOR YOU GUYS, TAK PERNAH. kalau beday adik aku, beria sambut but mine?? damn it im just tired. Im tired of crying because of this so-called-family problem. Maybe i sh...

Hey. I'm currently listening to yellow hearts from Ant Saunders. Not bad. I dont have crush on anyone rn. Im freakin serious. No doubt, no second thoughts and tbh i dont feel shock at all. Ofc ive been at that dont-have-anyone-to-like-state a few times. But as for this time, it feels real. I mean i really have no one to be crushed on. Nobody. If u ask any of my friends, they sure  will be saying "dont trust her yada yada yada". Ya i completely agree with them at THAT MOMENT but as for now it totally different. When i was in high school, i did have crush on a number of guys. From the most fierce senior to a completely weird junior, they all should feel lucky to be on my CrUSh LisT. Huh, idk when i think bout them, i just cannot feel anything. No familiar nervousness or the butterfly in my stomach thingy. Only memories. Sweeet memories for sure. I have no idea why suddenly most of my friends have their own partner. Is it a post-spm tradition?? idk. Seriously. Sometim...

Ok, Hey guyss! -quite awkward, can we start all over again? Hey, guys! So, i am back and i guess no one would care bout that. Even my neighbours dont know my name. No intention to express my feelings here but i yaa i have too much free time. Should be entering cooking class huh? yes i know but i had succesfully made my own macaroni goreng yesterday and i started to doubt wether... Ahhh, not really important. To dear future hubs, i will be prepared In Syaa Allah to cook you my own kangkung goreng or mac and cheese. Just be ready, ok? Hahahah To be honest, i think there would be no one who will notice bout my blog and spend time to read all my absurd stories. I can confirm that. So if you r not me and you r reading this, emm hi? I am just ordinary girl with extraordinary ideas. Quiet cliche, huh? I know, no worries. I will be listening to all sad taylor swift songs or sometimes that graduation song from beny blanco and Juice WRLD while writing my blog. It depends on my mood. Ok ...